I want to put into words my feelings about losing my children. I really, really want to do it.
This is really, really hard because in order to put my feelings into words, I’m going to actually have to feel the feelings that I refuse to feel and just thinking about feeling the feelings I refuse to feel is making feel way too much already and the tears are already welling up in my eyes and I hate that feeling.
I hate feelings.
This is my goal and I WILL ACHIEVE IT.
…but maybe not today.