Transparent

Been trying to write for so many days but nothing coming out no matter how many ways how many times I’m sitting at this screen until I’m almost blind and I really want to scream hate when I’m blocked and got no idea why just sitting there blank and while time is on the fly so I sit at night just looking at the sky lately really feeling like I prolly need to cry but nothing coming out because my eyes are dry they could use a little moisture but aint n’er one guy gonna come and get the best of me…thinking that I’m high can’t see a damn lie makes me so mad when they thinking that I’m stupid…all slow dumbstruck by motherfucking cupid yeah I’m prolly drunk but I assure you I am lucid and I warned you plenty times before I hollered deuces
It’s very apparent that I am transparent and sometimes my words may sound incoherent and I’m positive I’m arrogant, excellent at abhorrence but get away with it because of my appearance, the genes that I inherited are some bad motherfuckers I can’t even lie to any of you suckers I look damn good and my brain is pretty clever I wish I would’ve used it for some better endeavors
Relationships are hard and I don’t know how to do them so usually I end up saying whatever just screw em I don’t need nobody cause I never really have I loved my mimi as a kid and I thought I loved my dad then I found coke when I was 18 and compared to my dad coke was really less mean yeah it got me raped, homeless but high and I lost my first daughter without even saying bye and I’m amazed to this day that I never ever died and one time I can say that I gave a valiant try almost twice the lethal dose I shot straight into my vein I walked out of the bathroom hit the floor from that cocaine…grand mal seizure had me up and then back down, baby daddy watching on his face he had a frown cause he had to find my dope before he could go and dump my body and we’d been up for many days and I’m sure his brain was foggy
It’s very apparent that I am transparent and sometimes my words may sound incoherent and I’m positive I’m arrogant, excellent at abhorrence but get away with it because of my appearance, the genes that I inherited are some bad motherfuckers I can’t even lie to any of you suckers I look damn good and my brain is pretty clever I wish I would’ve used it for some better endeavors

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