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I feel like crap today.  My throat hurts and my glands are swollen and I did not want to get out of bed, but I had to let Rufus out, so get out of bed, I did.

I guess today is one of those days that I will sit here, in my house, in silence…not even caring to turn the tv on just for the background noise.

…just me and my thoughts, alone.

When I am alone in silence, suicidal thoughts start running rampant.

I’ll never again consciously decide to take my own life in a day….but the thoughts are always there.

My baby boy turned 10 at the stroke of midnight, and all I want to do is cry because all of my children are growing up so fast and I only get to watch it part-time.

IF THAT LAST PARAGRAPH MADE YOU FEEL GOOD AND MADE YOU FEEL HAPPY, THEN SOMETHING IS FUCKING WRONG WITH YOU AND YOU WILL REAP WHAT YOU SOW.

I hate that I have local people who read my blog only to orgasm in my misery….sick fucks.

 

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2 comments

  1. There are some really sick fucks out there that feed/get off on pushing people’s faces into shit, and watching people suffer.
    They are usually bullies, child molesters, drug dealers, pimps, strip club owners, crooked cops, and animal abusers.
    There’s a special place in hell for these oxygen theifs and turd burglars.

    Sending you positive thoughts.

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