Neither did he

For my kids, these lines make my stomach sick
I try my best to not think about this great big pile of shit
that I’ve laid you in, dressed you in and made you eat all day
I honestly never thought these dads of yours would ever be this way

to me it seems a good dad would not try to impede
with his selfish feelings consuming him with only nasty greed
but greed is what I got from everyone I thought
who would never take you from the one who you were begot

I don’t know how to tell you how sorry that I am
If I could go back again, way before there was Sam
I can’t even say what I’d do because I knew no sham
everything seemed copacetic thanksgiving turkey and ham

somewhere along the way…everyone forgot the day
I brought each of you into this world, six pounds of tiny clay
I never knew at the time that you’d be taken away
and molded into something that no longer had I say

At least I got to raise you all until the age of three
And I know that at least 3 of you do remember me
you remember how we lived all together very happily
Without a dad around and you made nothe one sound
you did not care he wasn’t there and neither did he.

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2 comments

  1. Life is like that, isn’t it? It makes you realize all of your mistakes and how badly you wish you could go back and change it all. Well, certain points in time for sure and you cannot. Leaving you only with regret. But, luckily you have good memories too of time spent with your babies. Hold onto those. Maybe they will try to find you someday. Hugs.

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